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September 23rd, 2009
04:36 pm - Writer's Block: Most inspiring teacher
Haven't we had this one before?
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September 21st, 2009
10:07 pm - Writer's Block: The truth is out there ...
There is no way that we are the onlys ones in the vastness of space, it's not possible! So in short, yes I believe. Maybe not in the whole 'little green man' thing though.
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10:06 pm - Writer's Block: Do you see psychics in your future?
I believe, but not in online psychics and telephone psychics. I remember a graham norton episode where they called a psychic line and the woman hung up when she realised she was on tv and they knew it was a sham. heehee!
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10:04 pm - Writer's Block: What if calories didn't count?
I have a high metabalism so it wouldn't bother me. Chocolate gives me bad skin though... it's the only thing i need to worry about =/
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10:02 pm - Writer's Block: It's not easy being green
... I turn my tv off instead of leaving it on standby? Nah. We do alot, we recycle bottles and cans and re-use carrier bags. It's not amazing, but it's a start. I want my own vegetable patch <3.
I think about it alot but I'm moving into my own house on friday amd i don't think there's any recycle-collection there and i dont have a garden for my own recycle bit.
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09:59 pm - Writer's Block: Are women or men bigger cheats?
I'm not sure. If they *know* they won't get caught it just depends on the person, it's all to do with morals. Cheating is WRONG, caught or uncaught. I believe in old fashioned marriage, not the whole marriage/divorce crap everyone seems to be doing nowadays.
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09:56 pm - Writer's Block: Happiest birthday gift
An N64. I was only little and we were dirt poor but my brother saved all summer in his weekend job to get it me. It was amazing.
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September 11th, 2009
12:02 pm - Writer's Block: Peek-a-boo, what to do?
I have complete trust in my partner, I have no doubts about him at all. I wouldn't read his emails or journal. I read my brothers journal once tho =p only a page of it though. I felt really guilty lol
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September 10th, 2009
12:00 am - When life gives you lemons... and you don't like lemonade
I had a good day today as far as work goes, but after work I went to my parents to wait for Mike to pick me up at 7. Now, by the time I got to my parents it's was 5:45, I was walking out of the door by 6:10 as Paul is that hard to be around. He got me so mad I was shaking.
I've got the job of looking after their 3 dogs for a week starting 11th - because my brother refuses to look after them anymore (yes they both still see him as an angel) One of the dogs is 15 years old, is probably in pain but they won't have her put down. She's incontinent and pisses and shits everywhere. The other two dogs have no respect for the place and piss and shit everywhere too.
So, I'm about to talk to mum about my new house when Paul pipes up that they have no food in the house. I ask if they are dooing a shop before they go as me and Mike have no monet to buy food while they're away. To this they reply; no.
Paul suggests I use my savings )my savings that I have gone a yar and a half without doing anything fun or exciting and in a job a loathed to accumilate). I tell him I will NOT be using my savings to pay for food to fill their house. My savings are there tp buy things for the house, not food to look after their dogs.
He then 'politely' suggests that, as I'm not stayng at Mikes parents for a week, I should hav aweek of the rent I paid back. They charge me and Mike £100 altogether for rent each month. She irons ans pas for over half the food and only asks that we keep the place tidy in return, she also paid £235 for our credit checks, so I tell him I will NOt be asking for £25 to look after their dogs. Paul then states that we shouldn't have to ask, Mikes parents should OFFER us the money.
I told him that while Mike and me were in our flat, Vanessa and Graham went on holiday for two weeks and paid our rent for the two weeks in return, what did he think about that?
'ooh, umm, eeeh, i don't know...' But he continues to go on about how 'bad' Mikes parents are. Umm, what bloody planet are you from? After all the help we've had from his parents the last thing you can say if that they are mean. And this is coming from my parents who didn't have any interest about the house when we decided to go for it.
I was so angry I left, it upset me that mum didn't stick up for me... It irritates me that she ALWAYS chooses not to side with anyone. I wish she would, even if it's not with me. You know where you stand. I went to ASDA with a foul look on my face, grabbed a basket and flung stuff into it while muttering stuff about the argument.
This probably makes no sense, especially as I don't write much on here, but after everything that's happened with mikes parents, my parents really have no right to say what they do.
My parents are actually turning into shitty people. That's awful to say, but it's so true.
On a good day, they sit there moaning about everything to do with life. Paople, what they've said, work, tv, anything! And they both want to come across like they're so hard done by, and they's both victims of everything. Especially mum. If somethings happened to you, mums somehow had it orse. If you're tired frm work, mum has to be too, but worse!
Arrrgh, irritating.
Dont wanna talk about it anymore.
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September 9th, 2009
11:58 am - Writer's Block: Finders keepers?
Diner or pub, I'd keep it. Library I'd probably hand it in. £100 woould do alot for me right now, but my luck isn't that good!
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September 8th, 2009
12:14 pm - Writer's Block: Scorching day
I love the beach but there isn't onw for miles. And Air-Con at the movies? It's normally hotter in there then it is outside.
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September 7th, 2009
11:34 pm - Writer's Block: Three-day weekend
Depends. I'm normally strapped vfor cash so end up staying in, but I'd like to travel more. Shame there's no more bank hols this year...
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September 4th, 2009
05:03 pm - Writer's Block: Memo to Myself
Don't worry about what other people think, just have fun and be yourself. Once you've left school you'll never speak to the people that don't like you again anyway.
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04:29 pm - Dreams and Nightmares
I had a really bad nights sleep last night, i had bad dream after bad dream. One of the dreams was a reoccuring one. Well, it used me be. I'd have it almost every night and then it justs topped, but it's started again now it seems.
I'll be doing something lik going shopping, learning to drive, walking to work and I have something in my mouth, like gum, that starts to grow and grown until it's almost choking me. I start to pick bits out of my mouth but i start vomiting and it keeps growing.
Last night it was slightly different. My mouth got dry in my dram, it got dryer and dryer until my mouth was fileld with a chalky substance. I was picking it out, trying to be sick, but i couldn't be sick. Instead i was pretending to be sick? I always wake up with a dry mouth.
The second dream was apocalyptical. It was like the world was ending. There was what I can only describe as an independance day-looking thing in the sky that was shooting fireballs and hurricanes and peopple all around me were being swept away. Me and Mike were running and trying to hide but nowhere felt safe. It was horrific. When i woke up I was so scared I woke Mike and and asked him to cuddle me. How bizarre.
I have these sort of dreams wuite alot too. Mostly hurricanes and hiding in houses trying to be safe,or the skywill be filled with these really dark, thunderous clouds that start tearing the croud up around me. Or the sky goes black and clear and these red electric bolts tear through the sky from start to star, everyone around me is scared as something it going horribly wrong, and we all know that the world is ending.
I get so scared of sleep sometimes. I really want to know what these dreams mean.
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04:12 pm - Writer's Block: As the Cookie Crumbles
Here's some more that will make people paranoid 'your outfit doesn't match', 'your waiter has crabs', 'that wasn't chicken', 'cats have been going missing all over this neighbourhood, 'beware the next caller' ... *shrugs* i like this one
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04:10 pm - Writer's Block: How Rude!
I'm pretty bad, i pretty much ask what i want to ask alot of the time and deal witht he consequences. Ive never said anything like 'when's it due?' but I'll ask peopel really personal stuff without thinking twice.
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September 3rd, 2009
09:14 pm - Writer's Block: As the Cookie Crumbles
"Everything happens for a reason" or "If life gives you lemons, make lemonade. If you're allergic to lemons then you will shrivel up and die" *nods*
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09:12 pm - Writer's Block: Worrisome
Right now, it's that I'll move into my house and won't be able to afford it and struggle.
I've just got a new job and it's a min of 16 hours a week, Mike is in full time work and I'm going to be selling my crafts so all should be fine. But what if it's not?
Ah well, we've got to pass the credit check first, we'll hear back by tuesday. There should be no reason to fail it but you never know...
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August 31st, 2009
07:32 pm - Writer's Block: Doh!
I moved to Sutton Coldfield for a few months with my (ex)boyfriend when I was 17. I lost contact with all of my friends and lost alot of my confidence. I've nevr got either of them back =(
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August 28th, 2009
01:17 pm - Up ^ down v up ^ down v
Hmm, not feeling too happy today. The house we wanted has gone any everything else that is available is either small, in a bad condition and we're still waiting to view. There's only 1 left to view.
Superdrug haven't got back to me yet, which really sucks. I really need that job. Like, REALLY. We want to move out and go to college. We can afford to move out on Mikes wages but extra is needed for college. If we have to choose only one, then it's going to have to be college. Sucks.
Which means I'll have to move in with my parents, as Vanessa is booting me out in December. She says she's kicking me and Mike out, but she's made it clear she's willing to let Mike stay. Which is fair enough. My parents won't let Mike stay, so we're being forced to be apart.
Being around my parents bings me down. Mums been in a real off mood since Pauls been working nights, and :auls always tired.
Mum asks for my help with something and then gets someone else to do it, or invinted me somewhere and goes with someone else instead. Or says that she's told me to do something, which she hasn't. Pisses me off a little. Or alot.
I tread on eggshells trying my very best not to piss her off or hurt her and she doesn't care if she does it to me. What's the fucking point in me trying? I leave her house feeling stressed every night.
I have a great choice. Be alone at Mikes parents or be with my spiteful mum. I don't have (m)any friends. The only one that can meet up with me whenever lives in Rugby.
My moods are all over the place, as my thoughts are too. And my hope/luck. My hope is always high, my luck is always out.
So fed up. Fuck sake.
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